Mixnine Baby !

Its been a long time. Hello Blog!
Today I am going to talk about Mixnine. Its a Kpop competition. You can search it for further infos.

So of course I have my biases. Only 9 girls and 9 boys will  left after some challenges.  I badly want the boys to win and debut.

Here is my top 9 (boys) respectively.

1. Han Gyeom (Staro)
2. Hyojin (WM)
3. Byeong Kwan (Beat Interactive)
4. Seung Jun (WM)
5. Hyun Seok (YG)
7. Seungjun ( KNK)
8. Jaejun (Banana Culture)
9. Tae Woo (Million Market)


Others:
Narachan (FM)
Sehoon (Beat Interactive)
Sangwon (Staro)
Hyunsoo (Happy Face)
Jiyoung (Happy Face)

34th Anniv

So our 34th church anniv happened last sunday (082717) . It was a success! I am sooo happy. After all those bad dreamS that I had before about the anniv, well not now SATAN!

Im going to post some pic here. Everyone loved our outifts that day. I am looking forward for the next uniform we will have.

PS. 090117, we attended a concert and Ray was also there, we were backstage  when their church present a song, and I was just staring at him while he was playing the bass guitar and singing.. and i was like "God, He's the one." Hahaha. We never talked that night, but I am so overjoyed.

Koo Junhoe, Saranghe

Oh my love! Seriously, like seriously I am into Koo Junhoe nowadays. After I watched Mix and Match, I started to like him because of his awesome voice and charismatic appearance and his perfect physique. My gosh!!! I am soooooooo doomed.


If you read my past posts, I have mentioned Taeyang a lot of times because I was into him  since 2008 till 2013?  but what I felt for this dongsaeng is much much intense than oppa. Hahahaha ... He is like 4 years younger than me, I am soooo old, I feel like an ahjumma rather than a noona.


Everytime I hear Junhoe sings, my tears fell because I am so amazed by his voice. My heart is melting I could die. I CHANGED MY PHONE WALLPAPER, and you know this is getting serious. Help!!!!

I have nothing to post

I dunno what to say, i dunno what to do.. la la la. its a song. hahahaha.

okay so really i have nothing to say. i just want my blog to be updated. life goes on. i thank God for that.


Still no title thesis. but hopefully we'll come out with the best. love love love.

Last Year in Uni

Yow! School starts oredi and I am trying to accept the fact that I need to wake up early and go home late. We are also preparing for our thesis and we need to present a title tomorrow and my group doesnt have anything yet. As always... hahahaha


My tooth is aching so much that it connects to my head. Have you felt this way before too? or just me... it is soooo painful I wanna cry plus I have a very low pain tolerance. I cannot.


I dont really have anything to share.... or not yet. hahahha

End of Summer + Realization

Hello there again! Its been so long that I updated my blog. I wasnt really that busy, I just dont have a phone but thanks to my dad, he got me a Z3. Love Love !

I wanted to explain all the places I went to but I realized there are so many and I am lazy ... But all in all I am really happy coz I never thought I would go to those places. God is good.


Realization? Yes, I attended a camp last time and I had sooo many learnings and realization about my relationship with God . It was the best camp for me because I was able to get closer to God. Aso, I met someone, But nothing much for now.

Also, this day I have known the truth about my ex. Yes we had a communication for like a week, just a friendly cono.But still through this pain I become a better person, a person who will trust God in all ways. ...


Thank you Jesus for letting me realize all of these things. I love you, my superhero.

Summer break is Real!

So hellow there self! So this week. my summer started. Tho in all nervousness I am still not sure if I passed all my subjects. But I believe that God will help me get through.

So whats with the title? I have been studying in my uni for 5 years now, and I never had a summer break because of all the internship and summer classes. But guess what? I HAVE A SUMMER BREAK NOW!! Yes! I am free like a bird, and bored as a panda.

I will rot in my home for 2 months. I dont now what to do! My friends wanted to go to Sipalay and there's still no news about it. Just expect the worse I guess. I have no plans this summer. I have no money. I have nothing to do.

Is summer fun? NO! It's just a lazy boring 60 days of rot inside my crib, except or those very few events I will be attending.

PLUS, the youth camp will be in Iloilo, and this will be the last time ever (i am exaggerating) that I will see Ray my loves. Haha, He will be studying in Manila for 2 years, and who knows what will God's plan for him.


Pictures are taken during our Project Site Planning. Hahahahahha.. As if.

Writings 03

Just as each day passed
All these memories flashed
Since the day you left
Over and over, the pain I felt
Never did I forget, once we had our history.


You taught me how to love,
 when I failed to do so.
 You taught me how to smile,
when I forgotten how to.
 But you never taught me to be strong,
 when you left me and go.

Writings 02

"I love you, therefore I must set you free," he said.
"Then please just hate me and stay,"she replied.

"I am lucky to have you," she said.
"Well, I am not lucky to have you," he replied.
I am blessed, because for sure I know, that God gave me you."

Writings 01

She left him, for she caused him so much pain. She called it sacrifice, he called it lies.


Of course I will be fine, as long as I won't be seeing him with someone, I will be fine, I will be okay.


Just as much as we want the sun, it would never stay. Just as the wave comes to the seashore, it will go back to the sea. But the sun came back, the waves came back, but you didnt.


We were so happy .....  in a picture ....taken a year ago.


She had a hard time finding her true self, she didnt realized she lost him.


How can you pick up all the pieces, when you keep breaking it?



If only you cared more and I cared less, maybe it worked out.



I went to the place where we used to go, and I never thought it would be the loneliest place I have ever been.



A "goodbye" instead of a "Hi" is possibly one of the most painful words to hear

Stuffs I wanna buy!

Omg! So I have learned about this app called Shopee, it is actually an online shopping company and so far I have bought 2 stuffs.

I am totally inlove with this akirt. Lets just say it was love at first sight. The color and the designs are just so attractive. I wanted it the first time I saw it. It was a Valentine gift for myself. Hahhah

I also bought a shoes. But I bought a khaki colored shoes and my sis bought the black one. I like it very much, also it was cheaper online so I took the chance to buy it and cant wait to wear it.

Theres still stuffs I want to buy because Im just like that. If you cant stop thinking about it, buy it, hahhhah 

Here you go... 

If and only if I have money to buy all of it. Haissst

I failed myself

There's something that happened that caused a bad impression towards me. I know that it was my fault. I have accepted the consequences. I am bothered by it thats why I expresssed my feelings here. I dont want people to see me weak and worried, I dont want to be like that ever again. Haiz, but God has reasons. I trust Him.

Today I have learned that I have no chance with Ray. Yes his name is Ray. Hahahaha. But stoll I will continue to admire and will support him in his ministry. I am just happy that I found him and became my inspiration.

Questions Questions About Me

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? 
A word from a bible.

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? 
Last night, no worries, just mood swings. Haha

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? 
Nobody likes it.

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? 
Ham.

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 
In the future hopefully.

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? 
Yes, Im okay I guess. I can trust me.

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? 
Yes, that sometimes it offends my friends.

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? 
Yes, Its still in the right place.

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? 
Im afraid of heights but I would loved to!

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? 
Coco Crunch

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? 
Some. 

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? 
Yes, I should be

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? 
Chocolate.

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? 
Their clothes. hehe

15. RED OR PINK? 
Pink 

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? 
Being too pessimistic, but not this time.

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? 
My best friend!

18. WHAT IS THE PAUL MCKENNA TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST? 
Don’t know who that is… so will answer alternate question 

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? 
Black. School shoes.

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? 
I only drink coffee.

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? 
TS- You belong with me

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? 
Brown. Use me when you need me. hahahah

23. FAVORITE SMELLS? 
my perfume

24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? 
Nobody. No one wants to call me :(

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE? 
Neither

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH? 
Wrestling. Hahah

27. HAIR COLOR? 
Black baby

28. EYE COLOR? 
dark brown maybe

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? 
sometimes I do

30. FAVORITE FOOD? 
Spicy foods

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? 
Scary movies, im not bitter. hahaha

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? 
Harry Potter

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? 
Gray

34. SUMMER OR WINTER? 
How I wish we have winter here

35. HUGS OR KISSES? 
Hugs 

36. FAVORITE DESSERT? 
Chocolate cake

37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO? 
Both

38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION? 
Computer 

39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW? 
oont have hahaha

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? 
Stuffs

42. FAVORITE SOUND? 
Touch love- Yoon Mirae

43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? 
Neither

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME? 
Singapore.

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? 
I can identify colors just by looking at them

46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN? 
Earth

47. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW? 
Earth

48. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE? 
Orange and blue hahahah

49. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR? 
Blue and black

50. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 50 QUESTIONS? 
Yes!!!! 

HELLO 2017!!

So this is my first ever post for this year. Why? This is the only time I have the courage to do so.
Let's just say that part of me wasn't ready to accept the fact that I am hurting and not recovering from what 2016 has done to me. I wanted to be strong coz hey its new year, should be joining the new year, new me trend. Hahaha



Okay, so my last post was about my ex  right? So lets just clear it and finalized it whatsoever. Yes, he moved on and already have a new gf that fast. But who knows, he had her when we were still together maybe? Wink wink. So when I found out, I was hurt and took days to accept it. But of course, I prayed to God and thank Him coz he has given the comfort and the wisdom I needed to accept this tragic reality. So I hope this will be the last time I will ever mention him. God bless and Goodbye!


TYJ, yeap this guy also. Confirmed that he has a girlfriend and happily living the life he deserves. But yes I am still bitter that he lied to me. I trusted him with everything but then he did this to me. But I have no reasons to be angry coz in the first place, THERE IS NO COMMITMENT. So yeah. Goodbye TYJ!


For all the wrongdoings, mistakes I have done in the past, lemme say this, " I might intentionally or not intended to do so but I have done something that make God unhappy and I am willing to change for the sake of a better future and a better relationship with God. I might not change what had been done but I believe that acceptance is the key." I thank God for 2016, I lose people that I thought would stay in my life, but they all gave me reasons to be contented to what I have now. Pastor, Jason and TYJ, thank you for being part of my past. Thank you so much.

I can now confidently say that  I am free from the things that keeps me apart in serving God. Thank you Jesus! I am more than blessed.