Confessing to a Guy

Okay! So this is gonna be a shocking revelation. Really shocking for those readers, stalkers, acciedentally opened this blog.

Ladies and Gentlemen............

I CONFESSED TO A GUY ABOUT MY FEELINGS FOR HIM.

Yeap! U read it right. So the story begin when we talked seriously, I told him that I have something "serious" to tell him. I forgot the exact words I told, but It goes something like this.

I quote: " Honestly I really like you very much that it hurts u only treat me as a sister"

He said if only we are near to each other, we can be together... but yes we are 1500 miles away. This is a heartbreaking story I tell you.

Funny it might seem but its real, and this is it. No chance.

Epic fail. The end.

Just a thought. A stupid thought.

Hey,

im just wondering how come you dont talk to me all of a sudden.
I wanted to ask you, its hard to be this way, especially in our situation.
I cant look at you, coz it just hurt that you just think of me as an invincible person. Im like nothing, im nothing here.

I shouldnt bother, I shouldnt care but you are not this type.. or maybe I just dont know you that much..or maybe im just overthinking perhaps? u used to wake me up when im angry, I hated it but guess what, I missed it, I miss that short time that we spent. then, here I go again, you chose her and leave me. I have no right to argue, im the freebie.

hey kriz, pls stop being so stupid and immature, you will live all alone if you continue to be like that.

The Dark Side of Me

Hey yow! So there's a lot of stuffs I wanna talk about but because of some intances, which one of those is being lazy, I wasnt able to post.

C H U R C H

One of the pastor in my province died last thursday. He was my mom's ptr when she was still a youth. He was a very nice ptr. But we all know that he is now in God's hands. I envy him, because he is already at peace.

F R I E N D S

Rekindle the friendship with Jenny. I admit I was wrong, she told me she didnt hate me. She was just shy to talk to me because I was with Roshiel. In my part, I thought she hated me. Well Im at wrong. Now we always sms like before and im really happy. But with Roshiel, I guess, it didnt worked out well with the trying-to-get-back-the-friendship. Again, its my fault. I didnt talked to her for so long, I get rid of her because she wasnt a good influence I think. I dont wanna say anything much, I dnt wanna be the mirror of her.

L O V E

Lim's birtday was yesterday. I messaged him and he replied, "U are"? Well, it didnt turn out to be a good convo. Good thing I wasnt hurt or somethin, but waht scares me, is I might fall for someone with a Jerson syndrome. That's the time people will call me stupid.

Here's the story:
This guy is a bit goodlooking I admit. He treat me like his own gf. He told me he is willing to ask my parents and pator's permission so he can woo me. But he has a girlfriend now, and seriously like seriously, even if he is serious, all I think is that he is fooling me because of course the reason that he has a gf. I really dont know how I can t rid of him. Its scary. I dont want anything to gt worse.

Fail both in action and words

Im so sad right now, I dont want to be depress or anything. I need to be positive but........

So something happened, my engineer got angry because I jokingly call him stupid. So I guess I wont be able to talk to him anymore like we used too, it hurts but I guess theres reason,

I guess waiting for the one will be very hard. Theres so much I need to learn and my heart easily fall to someone, someone who I shouldnt fall in love with. Too much hurt.