Job Seeker

So currently, I am jobless and it's a sad thing. Actually I have a choice, if im going to pursue the Call agent thingy, but its a risk. I may not be able to attend church more often.

Honestly, just thinking of my future again, Im scared. I wanted to go oversea and work, but I think I should not expect much because  I lack skills and experience. Sad story.

But I will just trust God. I know he has plans for me, not to harm, but to prosper me. I still thank God for everything. I know He is always there for me, He maybe invincible but I know He is there..  I can feel it.

Im about to breakdown, but NO. God will be there in every step of my way. So im gonna smile, and pray. 

Bessed as Always ,
Kriz Cyan

Being with Someone

There's a lot of things I wanted to do together with that special someone.

I guess its a bucket list.

1. I want to go to Boracay with him.
2. Eat in restaurants and try new delicacies
3. Go shopping and help me choose clothings, and vice versa.
4. Cook together.
5. Pray together.
6. Travel Asia at first, then whole world.
7. Play in the rain.
8. Watch movies, even just at home.
9.  Sing together.
10. Take pictures together.

Haha! Some would be really hard to do, but the last one is what I really want to do first, yeah... if ever I have that someone. Such a loner. haha.

Sunday Day

God is good!!

Today went to church, first time to operate the projector after one year. Not bad, just need to familiar some songs.

In the afternoon ,went to other town to attend the after dedication lunch of my god daughter. It was good.

after that went for outreach. it was fun.

God is really good as always.

Back with the youth

Hello hello!

I am currently at church for the youth service and later at 12 to 1 am for the chainprayer. I miss this kind of activities in church. I also miss the youth, but I really hope my bff was here. I miss her le.

This is one of those things I really I wanted since then, to have internet wherever. Now , i have one but I its useless I guess. I can't talk to him anyway.

I hope that I can already work next week. I really really hope!!

Drowning Feeling Again

So Hello there!

There's a lot of things going on with my life. It's just the same old thing over and over which I cant get over with.

So last Oct 17, ex messaged in fb and of course because it was unexpected but honestly the whole entire time i was hoping that he will message. That weird feeling I tell you which is recently Im feeling now.

So that time we talked till midnight about life, I was assuming that he will get back with me, but he didnt , he just said he jst wanted to catched up with my life and all. But honestly, the stupid girl that I am, although ive been hurt by same person a lot of times, I still wanted him. Very stupid I know.

So after that we dont talk anymore , were  friends in fb again, then after that he keeps liking my photos, so i told him that he shouldn't be like that coz i wont be able to moved on, so. now he dont.

But today, I have the worst feeling again. Missing him and there's nothing I can do. Like literally nothing. I am thinking that maybe I should just unfriend him so I cant just go on, internet has been part of my life now, and everytime I open my fb all I wanted is to talk to him. Its killing me inside over and over. I have been this way for 2 years and im tired. Im very tired of my stupid thoughts.

Some people might say Im choosy coz I dnt let anyone comes in to my life, but they dont know... I like guys but those people just look at me as a friend. Also, those people who wants to woo is those which I cant see my future with.

Im not waiting, I am hoping that someday my heart will be whole again and wont be broken, coz I struggle too much. Too emotional, too stupid, too childish. That's me.