Dear TYJ

See? I thought I can stop talking about him but still here I am.


Hey loves! How are you? Are you doing well? Hang in there, soon you'll graduate. I am very excited for you to finish your studies. You never know, but Im really happy for you. I secretly pray for your success.


I know this is useless but I can't say it to you in person so I just put it here. I badly want to be in your graduation day! But anyway, just Take good care always.


Don't worry, I will be okay. I will be fine. Be happy always!! :)


Wo ai ni <3

Summer away

Few chosen photos

I am so lazy to update anything. I will try my best though.

1st Day:

Reunion Day! So I seen my relatives from my Mom's side. I seen but never met them really. I also seen my Aunt, but we're same age. She has a son already. Her mom told me, my body structure is not suitable to have a husband yet. Like I told u! I look like a 12 year old girl. Sad la!

2nd Day

Rot at home. Nothing to do. Afternoon time, I and my siblings went to the park to play. I enjoyed it. Thats it.

On the other side of my brain:

I was thinking of the "seenzoned" moment.
But TYJ replied after a day. But better not to reply, so I can just move on yes? ugh, I think no.

Mid-Summer

Tomorrow Im going to my mom's hometown. They have a reunion, oh well I guess im included. I just want to go not because I wanted to, but for the sake of SUMMER.


My summer should be fruitful. Full of memories. Full of happiness. Full of sweats. Full of heat. Full of burnt skin! Ahhhhh!!! My precious skin is turning into a roasted skin!

But its all worthed it!!!


I jumped from a 15 ft. rock maybe!! no, I didnt die. I fell into the water, thu i dunno how to swim but I did it! of course, my bros drag me to the shallow part after that.


I wish I was an adventurous person, maybe I can discover and learn more. Issit too late??

Things I realized when I turned 21

So there are things I realized when I turned 21. I never thought life would be different as I wanted it to be. I learned and I will still learn a lot.

1. Being 21 - I am the eldest in the family. I am also the oldest in our youth at church. I still don't act like a 21 yrs old, I act like a 12 yrs old girl. I'm not a responsible child/leader. 


2. Ministry - I should have learned the piano when I have the time. When everyone else in the circle of friends were used in the Music ministry, I was left behind.


3. Job - I don't have the skills to be a good technician and I think Im not capable to be one. But until now I don't know what I really want.


4. Love - thru all the failures and heartaches, its because I expected too much. I am a great assumer. Now, I learn to just let go of everything. Let go and Let God. Wait. Just wait for it.


5. Beach - No, I dont like the beach anymore thu I live very near to the beach. I don't like the sun either. I hate swimming. I should have learned how to swim.


6. Social Life - I killed my social life.  Whether in real or the internet. I don't use much of anything that can interact with people. I don't go out much. I wanted to stay at home always.


7. Study - I wanted to study engineering not because I wanted to be an engineer, I will study because I dont want to be just a technician with minimum salary. I wanted to be like others, to have what they want.


8. Singapore - Yes, I wanted to go there. I wanted to stay there. But maybe not now, I realized not now. I am not ready spiritually. Maybe I don't want to go there any more.


9. Lady - I am a girl, but never a woman. Everyone knows how to fix themselves, I am left with my messy hair and unpowdered face. I can wear good clothes, but it can never hide how not lady-like I am.


10.  Body - I need to eat vegetables, I need to exercise. Its hard, but I know Its worthed it in the end. I will try. I should.