Oh well, I decided for the millionth time, I removed ex in my FB. Better this way, forget everything.
I wanted to message TYJ, but im scared. I want to tell him what I feel, but in this case I guess I rather keep this and not disturb him anymore. Anyway im going home soon and I will never ever see him again.
Worth the risk but then im scared of the risk, might hurt me well.
I know this is crazy, but I know now who I want. Its you Tan Yi Jun.
I want to see you, but im just very shy. I have no confidence.
I have to say goodbye after my vacation here. I hope you the best for your career and all. Please go find the perfect girl.
I LOVE YOU, KUYA.
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So hello! Tough day.
Nothing much, stayed at home.
Overthinking .
Its been 1033 days since I became stupid.
Cheers!!!
I just wonder why...
You told me not to message you again
You told me to find someone better.
Why? I want to know why you think such things. I know maturity reigns in your mind, but I want to know why.
Maybe really im not worthed enough for you in everything. I am not okay, but its okay, anyway I have been like this for years, im used to it. Pain was part of my life.
I can smile with bitterness hidden. This is me anyway. I have been a terrible person. Sad. Im very sad.
The pain was so common. So random.
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I am now in Spore, with the doubts of the future. I don't know what Im doin here. Job? Holiday? Its hard choice. But if you would ask me , I wanna go home.
So im here now, the place where he lives. Before it was thousands miles away, but here, just one call, I can see him. But that's the case, I guess we can't see each other.
I don't want to see him. What for? Friendship? Closure? I dont get the point of seeing an ex. But im thinking its a chance. But . . I rather not.
I just need to enjoy the time im here, try not to think of all the things that is happening.
In this time, I think Im strong. I can handle things without the help of others. Im proud of myself. Thank God for this courage.
