How to forget you Love?

I want to get you out of my life
But im scared at the same time
I want to hold on to our memories
Coz that's the only thing that's mine

I Don't have your heart anymore
You took it away from me
But I understand your reasons
Coz before ive hurt you  deeply

I don't understand myself
How come im still not over you
Time would heal the pain they say
I guess thats not true

I tried and tried to forget you
But I can still remember everything
I dunno how, i dunno why-
im just really a stupid human being

Matchmade in Heaven

I thought we were matchmade in heaven, all I wanted was you baby. But how cruel life could be. We were fine, we are about to plan our future together.

Look at us now, the saddest thing is I cant even talk to you anymore. The saddest thing that ruins my mood is knowing that " we will never be together."  Sadly, I am still yours.

Maybe... Maybe if we just hold on, we can be together. But you gave up on me, you go far away from me. I am still chasing you from afar but I want to give up already. But  you took my heart with you.

Too much burden just of one person who become the happiness of your soul. But ruins everything ahead because he left without you preparing for this tragic affair.

Throwback feelings

So hey!

I just checked my past posts in Fb and read all the wall posts, me and Lim had before. I remembered how much happy I was knowing and having him.

Though, ours is a LDR and we never saw each other in person, I know that what we had is worthed keeping. Just by knowing him, I learned a lot , especially with the time you will have for him and God. Maybe yes, thats why it didnt worked out coz we chose to have more time with each other than with God

Through all the heartaches and pains we had, God is still good. He has plans for us, and im still thankful where I am and where he is now.

Sadly, I know that I need to let go of him, forever... I have to look forward and concentrate to the new year. There's more to worry, rather than him. Two years is enough. Let go, Let God.

Anyway Im just a Friend

Its just me and the expectations I have. Not a chance tho. I want to give up, i want to forget you.

Last month. I dont care. Im hurt and you feel nothing. Unfair.

Goodbye~

First day of Solid Class

Oh my!!!

God. I need Prayers.. I need meditation. I am so stress! Just thinking about my classes tomorrow. Oh.  Really. Man! I like kids and they liked me. But. .. Please give me patience. Give me peace of mind. Led me not into stress and depression. May this 3 months be as productive as it could be. Thank you.

I must sleep coz tmr is worthed waking up for.

Saranghe Jacob Oppa

Annyeong Hasaeyo!

Yeaps. Korean. So now im working in an academy as an English teacher. So i Better be conscious of my grammar. Thank God for this Job!

So the past 2 weeks, we have a training program to improve our english skills. Then last week, one of the best week. I had a trial class with one of the students, his name is Jacob.

At first, we jst talk formally. But in the third day, we became close or maybe im just a feeler. So anyway, we talked about love because of the topic, and its a good thing for me i guess, bcoz i knew more about him.

But the last day, i felt the sadness becoz i will not be his teacher, i will see him less :( but he sang a song for me. Omg! His voice was just too awesome. My heart melted until now. Seriously, i was head over heels with love! Help!

Tomorrow we should celebrate my first formal class as a teacher and also as SINGLE! Yeap, im good with dates and time. :)

Job Seeker

So currently, I am jobless and it's a sad thing. Actually I have a choice, if im going to pursue the Call agent thingy, but its a risk. I may not be able to attend church more often.

Honestly, just thinking of my future again, Im scared. I wanted to go oversea and work, but I think I should not expect much because  I lack skills and experience. Sad story.

But I will just trust God. I know he has plans for me, not to harm, but to prosper me. I still thank God for everything. I know He is always there for me, He maybe invincible but I know He is there..  I can feel it.

Im about to breakdown, but NO. God will be there in every step of my way. So im gonna smile, and pray. 

Bessed as Always ,
Kriz Cyan

Being with Someone

There's a lot of things I wanted to do together with that special someone.

I guess its a bucket list.

1. I want to go to Boracay with him.
2. Eat in restaurants and try new delicacies
3. Go shopping and help me choose clothings, and vice versa.
4. Cook together.
5. Pray together.
6. Travel Asia at first, then whole world.
7. Play in the rain.
8. Watch movies, even just at home.
9.  Sing together.
10. Take pictures together.

Haha! Some would be really hard to do, but the last one is what I really want to do first, yeah... if ever I have that someone. Such a loner. haha.

Sunday Day

God is good!!

Today went to church, first time to operate the projector after one year. Not bad, just need to familiar some songs.

In the afternoon ,went to other town to attend the after dedication lunch of my god daughter. It was good.

after that went for outreach. it was fun.

God is really good as always.

Back with the youth

Hello hello!

I am currently at church for the youth service and later at 12 to 1 am for the chainprayer. I miss this kind of activities in church. I also miss the youth, but I really hope my bff was here. I miss her le.

This is one of those things I really I wanted since then, to have internet wherever. Now , i have one but I its useless I guess. I can't talk to him anyway.

I hope that I can already work next week. I really really hope!!

Drowning Feeling Again

So Hello there!

There's a lot of things going on with my life. It's just the same old thing over and over which I cant get over with.

So last Oct 17, ex messaged in fb and of course because it was unexpected but honestly the whole entire time i was hoping that he will message. That weird feeling I tell you which is recently Im feeling now.

So that time we talked till midnight about life, I was assuming that he will get back with me, but he didnt , he just said he jst wanted to catched up with my life and all. But honestly, the stupid girl that I am, although ive been hurt by same person a lot of times, I still wanted him. Very stupid I know.

So after that we dont talk anymore , were  friends in fb again, then after that he keeps liking my photos, so i told him that he shouldn't be like that coz i wont be able to moved on, so. now he dont.

But today, I have the worst feeling again. Missing him and there's nothing I can do. Like literally nothing. I am thinking that maybe I should just unfriend him so I cant just go on, internet has been part of my life now, and everytime I open my fb all I wanted is to talk to him. Its killing me inside over and over. I have been this way for 2 years and im tired. Im very tired of my stupid thoughts.

Some people might say Im choosy coz I dnt let anyone comes in to my life, but they dont know... I like guys but those people just look at me as a friend. Also, those people who wants to woo is those which I cant see my future with.

Im not waiting, I am hoping that someday my heart will be whole again and wont be broken, coz I struggle too much. Too emotional, too stupid, too childish. That's me.

Two Decades and a Year

Hello world! Yes its official.... im oldish. I am now a 21 yr old human. 

I am so happy this day because my high school friends came to my house. We eat shabu shabu style dishes. Goshes. How I miss eating shrimps!! my love! 

So this day Im thankful. I thank mom and dad for the financial waste and mom for all the efforts. How blessed I am. Although, I dont have time for everyone, especially my friends in Laguna, but I really love all of them.

Im gonna change my blog background again. I guess im gonna use PINK. 

Thanks to Kuya for greeting me at exactly 12, 

New Life Changes

Guess what?

Im back to my hometown, for good. I will be pursuing my engineering degree. But before that, I struggled a day, oh well just a day only.

I thought I wont miss them, my coworkers, but then I cried...a lot. I dunno wjy, they just mean so much to me because they makes me haooy eery.single.day. do you how that feels? Losing people that meant to you . But this is life, im still thankful though.

Then, I dunno know but I missed Alex this past few days, and guess what? He messaged me on the 17th. I was shocked. I dont want to reply coz I dunno what to say. But then Bratz told me to just messaged him, so I did and it was fine. But then now, we dont message anymore but we are friend on Fb, I guess I still love him, nothing changed. I badly want to talk to him, but I have no right. He is not mine anymore.

But soon enough, I need to focused on my studies, I guess being in a relationship wont helped. so I decided to cut my communications to people who I guess is a threat to my overthinking stupid mind.

Few days and its gonna be my 21st bday, let see what happens, well nohing much exciing, but I guess I just need to refresh my self to God. I need to focus in Jesus,

No more Inspiration for Me

I guess I and Henry will never talked again. Its really sad and I feel like crying.

Maybe its not Kevin, the guy I have a crush for 3 years who doesnt know I exist.
Maybe its not Alex, the guy Iwho gave me so much happiness and the other way around.
Maybe its not Henry after all, that mysterious guy who never shows motives of likeness.

Confessing to a Guy

Okay! So this is gonna be a shocking revelation. Really shocking for those readers, stalkers, acciedentally opened this blog.

Ladies and Gentlemen............

I CONFESSED TO A GUY ABOUT MY FEELINGS FOR HIM.

Yeap! U read it right. So the story begin when we talked seriously, I told him that I have something "serious" to tell him. I forgot the exact words I told, but It goes something like this.

I quote: " Honestly I really like you very much that it hurts u only treat me as a sister"

He said if only we are near to each other, we can be together... but yes we are 1500 miles away. This is a heartbreaking story I tell you.

Funny it might seem but its real, and this is it. No chance.

Epic fail. The end.

Just a thought. A stupid thought.

Hey,

im just wondering how come you dont talk to me all of a sudden.
I wanted to ask you, its hard to be this way, especially in our situation.
I cant look at you, coz it just hurt that you just think of me as an invincible person. Im like nothing, im nothing here.

I shouldnt bother, I shouldnt care but you are not this type.. or maybe I just dont know you that much..or maybe im just overthinking perhaps? u used to wake me up when im angry, I hated it but guess what, I missed it, I miss that short time that we spent. then, here I go again, you chose her and leave me. I have no right to argue, im the freebie.

hey kriz, pls stop being so stupid and immature, you will live all alone if you continue to be like that.

The Dark Side of Me

Hey yow! So there's a lot of stuffs I wanna talk about but because of some intances, which one of those is being lazy, I wasnt able to post.

C H U R C H

One of the pastor in my province died last thursday. He was my mom's ptr when she was still a youth. He was a very nice ptr. But we all know that he is now in God's hands. I envy him, because he is already at peace.

F R I E N D S

Rekindle the friendship with Jenny. I admit I was wrong, she told me she didnt hate me. She was just shy to talk to me because I was with Roshiel. In my part, I thought she hated me. Well Im at wrong. Now we always sms like before and im really happy. But with Roshiel, I guess, it didnt worked out well with the trying-to-get-back-the-friendship. Again, its my fault. I didnt talked to her for so long, I get rid of her because she wasnt a good influence I think. I dont wanna say anything much, I dnt wanna be the mirror of her.

L O V E

Lim's birtday was yesterday. I messaged him and he replied, "U are"? Well, it didnt turn out to be a good convo. Good thing I wasnt hurt or somethin, but waht scares me, is I might fall for someone with a Jerson syndrome. That's the time people will call me stupid.

Here's the story:
This guy is a bit goodlooking I admit. He treat me like his own gf. He told me he is willing to ask my parents and pator's permission so he can woo me. But he has a girlfriend now, and seriously like seriously, even if he is serious, all I think is that he is fooling me because of course the reason that he has a gf. I really dont know how I can t rid of him. Its scary. I dont want anything to gt worse.

Fail both in action and words

Im so sad right now, I dont want to be depress or anything. I need to be positive but........

So something happened, my engineer got angry because I jokingly call him stupid. So I guess I wont be able to talk to him anymore like we used too, it hurts but I guess theres reason,

I guess waiting for the one will be very hard. Theres so much I need to learn and my heart easily fall to someone, someone who I shouldnt fall in love with. Too much hurt.

New house, new people

Hey there! Im back for a very long time.

What happened? My phone spoilt! It was waterproof but wasnt able to prove itself. Its a long story and Im not reay to tell the world about it, coz i havent moved on yet. I HAVEN'T FULLY PAID FOR IT , that's why.

N E W   H O U S E   N E W   P E O P L E

So, I transferred to a new house. I am now staying at my friend's house. Its a pretty nice house and its color yellow, I will show some photos below this post.

Im staying with Bratz and Ton and they seems to be very nice. Bratz really treat me as a close family member, sometimes I call her mom because she is super caring. Ton also nice, I treat him as my younger bro although he is older than me for just 7 months. He has an attitude resemblance with my bro that's why.

Earlier Ton helped me do my laundry, cook and cut my nails, haha. I told him we are like just playing, he said it like for real that we are like living together. But I just really treat him as a bro, and Im happy about it.

2 monthw ane Im going home. Some things are trying to stop mw but my heart doesnt belong here, I know. I CAN FEEL IT.

So heres some photos of us in our Yellow House.

New house

No phone for me. It was damaged.

Okay. So I transfer house. Im with my friend, Bratz. My new house is nice and safe and clean and not to hot.

Omg. Im really lazy :(

Emo much, just nothing much

I wonder how come he loved me but never fight for me. Am i not worthed fighting for?

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Its really sad to know that I degrade myself too much. Everytime I look in the mirror, theres just one word that I can describe myself, UGLY. God will be sad I know but thats what I see, thats what people see.

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This Sunday my crush at church was singing in the stage and I looked at him and I asked God why He didnt gave him to me. God has reasons. But im just wondering. I know him for a year or so but we havent talked that much. I feel sad about it. He seems to be a really nice Godfearing person.

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I feel sad coz Kuya and I nvr messaged that much now. It hurts honestly and I dont know why. I can accept the fact that I will be just a younger sister for him.

Sunday's Hotness

Hey yow! Today again was tiring because I went to my friend's house again. Im actually planning to stay there till I go home at my hometown. But lets just see what will happen.

After church we went to eat, we used my new umbrella which I havent paid yet. Then it was accidentally broken. So we roam around the place to see if where we can be able to repair it. It was so freaking hot man! Super hot I wanna die already. Then after that we eat lunch at Jollibee go and find her aunty then went to mall.

HOT HOT HOT. I so wanna die. Sweat all over. Just so Hot.

I dunno what I really feel for someone. I really like him but sadly he just really treat me as a sister. Aiyoo. It hurts. :'(

Photos of me this day.

Staying at friend's house

Back again! Gosh. I am super tired one.

So I stayed at my friend's place from friday night  till today. We go here and there to prepare for the bible study. We sleep at around 1 am. THAT WAS THE MOST TIRING DAY EVER.

In the next day, we woke up at around 7 am. We ate the mangoes that pastor gave us. Then go to her aunty's house. We help do some stuffs for school. It was super hot one im gonna die.

We took photos. I look fair in the photos but she looks much fairer. Envy her so much one .

Unglamorous

Gosh! Its 12:45 AM and I am still awake. Im at my friend's house. We just had our bible study.

Its super tiring. First friday I have work this year and it didnt turn out so well.

Say hello to my Unglam shots. Im super sleepy, super tired and its super hot in here. Issit just me or the weather is just really hot?

Nothing much this day

I dont really have interesting thing to say. I just wanna update my blog from time to time.

So this day, my old boss asked me to do something. Im not used to do stressful works anymore maybe thats why I had a headache. Haha. Lazy humanoid

So so so. Tomorrow im going to have a new computer at work. Well, I hope they can recover all my documents or else im doomed really.

I want to resign already and work at my hometown. But something is stopping me. Something is telling me not to go back but I left my heart in my hometown, at our home, in my bedroom. Haha.

I cant wait for Saturday. Im so lazy already and so tired everyday. I need strength. Will u give me?

Bae is releasing his new album. Of course I wont buy but Im supporting him. I dont know how though

Outing with High School Buddies

Hello! Today was super tiring because we went to EK.

We didnt ride to all rides there sadly because theres a lot of people. So im a bit of lazy also. Just enjoy the photos. Seems like we really had a great time. Love this day!

Of course I have few of my solo photos.

Finding Mr. Right

Whoosh! I was just thinking what my friend Jerson told me last time. He said Im very choosy that Im going to live alone, all of my life. But I have my reasons...u know.

Nowadays, there's a lot of Jerson out there thats why im trying to be aware of who I met and talked to.  Earlier I stalked my crush's FB and I was shocked he is already married, with two kids ! But he is very young, i guess. Well....

So finding Mr. Right. In my POV
1. Love God above all
2. Graduated with degree.
3. Good-looking.

Issit hard to find a guy like this?? Well, yes!

The guy I like at church has the no 1 and 3. But not 2. So yeaaaah.....

The reason I want to marry a graduate is that for future financial sake. Im also thinking about it man. We must have a house, our own house and not rented. He can support the family without me working.

So tell me why Im choosy. I dont want "just" a relationship for the sake to have one. I wanted something worthed forever.

Seriousness overload. So heres some stupid photos of me, Jerson, Kevz and Chef.

Dunno What to Do

Hello world. Okay so direct to the point because im tired.

I went to my new friend's house. We had fun just talking and talking. But the awkward thing is how her brother shows interest to me. Although he was my crush the first day I saw him at church. But I dont like how he treats me seriously.

Why? He got a girlfriend. But for sure he dunno that I know. I dont want him to accompany me home but he keeps insisting. I dunno how to tell him.

A short Story

Venue: Somewhere in Singapore
Time: Around 5PM

Church just ended. Nothing much to be excited. I just witnessed the proposal of  Kevin to one of the churchmate just this day.

I decided to go in a park and there I sit in a bench beside a guy which I dont care. As I look at the people around me, I noticed a couple jogging with the same tennis shoes and then i realized it was Henry. Well I guess he found the girl of his dream. They seems an athletic couple.

There's this married couple in front of me. They are so sweet together and it seems I know the guy face. I cant believed It was Kelvin! He really married that girl. I smirked and think to myself how time ran so fast he is already married.

Then there's this familiar face again with his group of friends. They are three pairs. Well I guess they are really true friends. Im talking about Andy. They are cute bunch of lovers!

Then I noticed this guy beside me with his big back pack and his guitar. Then I was shocked for a moment. I dont know if Im just hallucinating or whatever. Its Alex...it was Lim. Im sure with that eyes, with that guitar and that tattoo. It was him. It was really him. I wanted to say Hi, so I gather all my strength and when Im about to speak.. His phone rang. He answered " baby where are you? Im in the bench near the food stand". Then for awhile there goes this cute girl who is same my age and height went directly to him. He holds her hands and kiss her on the cheek. I can say how happy they are. Nevermind. I shall not talk to him. Then they went to somewhere.

Im all alone in the bench. A bit of pain I still can feel. Then I didnt noticed my tears just feel. And suddenly out of nowhere... There this guy, unknown, seems a bit of familiar to me gave me his handkerchief.

It all started there. The start of the end of the search. I found him.

I Officially Missing You Again

Maybe now I fully understand everything. Why Im seeking love, why I force myself to someone, why I gave motives to some... Now I know.

After half a year, I still miss you...badly. I guess no matter how stupid, immature and lame I am, I truely deeply love you. Maybe its true love, coz it hurts.

Reading my old posts, I think its all funny how Im super duper crazy for you. Well thats love I guess and I never regret loving you anyway. Sadly you moved on already. Dont worry I wont ever disturb you again ever. I will never view ur fb page and instagram coz for sure I will just get hurt seeing all of your photos with the girl.

I need to move on but I dont know how. Its hard to forget someone who meant your world then suddenly he's gone.

Well? I have nothing else to say coz all of my posts about you are just redundant. Haha!

BOOM PANES ang feelings!

Too much Expectations

Expectation. Big Word.

It's hurt when you expect but the reality is way too different.

I expected that this year I will be going to study again but I cant.

I expected that he might liked me but NOPE. Sister it is.

I expected that ive moved on, but....

Happy Birthday Taeyang

Hey bae!! Happy birthday. I have been admiring you for 5 years now and my love for you never faded since then.

I remember back in freshmen college when my friend joked around you having your concert here with the rest of Bigbang. I really cried that time knowing that I wont be able to see you. The next year, guess what???? You really came.. To have your concert... ON THE EXACT DATE OF MY BIRTHDAY. Well that was a sad birthday then coz I wont be able to see you.

I hope that you will have more success in your career and please find a gf already. Choose the right one please . i will be hurt for sure but I want you to be completely happy

DONG YOUNG BAE I LOVE YOU!!!!!

New Found Friends

Hello to the world! Im happy this day coz God answered my prayer. A new friend at church with same dialect as me.

Her name is Joy. She is 23 yrs old. She has a daughter named Marjorie which is 4 yrs old already. She is a very happy person. I just laugh and laugh at her. She talked about her life and I shared about mine, a bit.

I hope we can be really good friends and I hope I can help her to be converted to my faith and beliefs. I will pray for that.

Also, I met his brother who is Tonton. Same age as me. Nothing much about him. He just accompany me home. Such a good bro.

Jerson Syndrome - Cheaters will cheat

So I found out that my bf was cheating the whole time. Well, I expected that to happen anyway. Most men will  intend to be unfaithful and this is what I call the Jerson Syndrome.

Okay, so Jerson is a friend of mine for a year and Ive known most of the things about him. How he let three girls believed that he is the most faithful, loyal  and sweetest guy they had seen in their whole entire life. Well, hell no! He is a one big lier and a cheater! But thanks to him now I think 95% of the guys are like him. I tried  to think that the bf of mine will be faithful maybe at this instance but he proved me wrong.

It doesnt hurt, its just sad that its hard to find faithful guys nowadays. Its sooooo very sad. Well goodluck to him and to his gf, may they last long.

I deactivated my instagram and Line so I wont be able to connect with him ever again and he didnt know why I suddenly lost in his world. Minus one to my stressful life.

SINGLE all over again. No relationship for now. Two consecutive failures is enough. I learned my lessons, when will they learn theirs???

Where is my Limitations?

So ive been away from my family for a year and I didnt know that at that time I was over the boundary, meaning I do things which my parents dont usually allow me to do. But its not really that bad but I just feel guilty although I also ask permission to my parents.

Firstly, I go out with my long time buddies till midnight. We just talk and talk in the park. But because they are boys, mom will be too strict. I know she trust me well so she just allow. But to my friends part, they think about it negatively and maybe I should be aware of my actions.

Then, I go to church late. You know that feeling when you have no friends so you are not excited to go the church? Well I know that the purpose we go to church is not for the people but for God. But its also a part of church, to connect with people but it doesnt worked out that way  sadly.

Last, I hardly pray. It really seems that Im a very bad person now. Its hard for me to connect with God and I dont know why. I miss the feeling to be connected to him. I want it back badly but I dont know when or how to start . i need guidance but I dont know to whom.

I dont drink and I dont smoke but I make sins just equal to those things . I may not be tempted of liquor and cigars but I feel dirty and unhealthy. My spiritual body is dying and I need someone to make me feel the guidance and the love. Im very empty inside just like a backslider spiritually.

What am I to you Bae?

I dont know how will I feel. At first I understand how you treat me. But hey man! Im ur girlfriend Im not just your friend. So your slow replies make me think that this whole relationship is a joke. I hate not to be a priority and you are treating me as sheet of paper.

I ask for ur time, well you are so clever to answer me that you are giving me 'abit' of your time. Good man! Obviously Im not too attached to you because for sure we will not end up together just the way you are treating me.

So why did I accept you anyway? I like you, just LIKE. But because Its hard for me to trust people anymore well maybe my feelings wont get any better. Also, you dont give much effort.

Maybe we are just trying to get rid of the past.

Future Sake Madness

Well I dont know how to start this post. Im so down now. Why? I dont know whats my plan.

Shall I pursue engineering?
Shall I just wait till im 23?

I want to study in the 2nd Semester but it sounds that my parents just want me to work here and honestly it sucks especially seeing those people who just change ur mood from being worse to worst. I cant handle too much stress I tell you, I get rid of it as soon as possible.

I want to tell someone, i want to ask for an advice. I cant even tell my bf coz I guess he wont understand really. So whats the point?? I dont know!! I dont know what to do now.

I never thought this is super stressed and Im not ready for all of these. Its killing my happiness....  Again.

I dont know. Useless me.

Confession of Being Me

Hey! This is gonna be a not so encouraging post. This is all about being pessimistic. Its all stuck in my brain and I need to just let it out. 

So a confession Im going to say is that.

1. Im not good looking at all. I know people already know me as an ugly short tanned skin human. But I want to let everyone knows about it. Pictures? Sure, let just say Im photogenic. I look good in most of my photos without editing it. But in reality im not. Im really not good looking at all. Even my parents know that.

One of the most hurtful thing a friend of mine said, " I hope you are JUST a picture". Its been years he told me that but I still cant get it out of my mind. Hon estly, im too ovelwhelmed to some of my photos because I thought thats what I really look like, but people around me proved me wrong.

2. Childish and immature. Well ive mentioned this a lot of times. But lets be specific now. Most at work treat me as a child because they say I act like one. Im unaware of that, its just me. Im also wondering why I am acting this way but I cant get an answer. Im also immature because I cant think of the most possible way to understand people around me.  I dont take most things seriously.

A friend of mine said "Grow Up". How? I am praying that God will give me a mature mind that people may also respect me. Its hard.

3. Not Descent. So most of the girls my age are like very descent and all. Wear nice outfits and all. Act like a lady also. But me? I wear what I want and sometimes my friends will tease me. Im not conscious of what I look like before. But now, i realize im in my twentys and I dont even know how to properly fix myself. I envy those girls who can really take care of themselves.

Im thinking sometimes that maybe its better for me not to have a partner coz for sure he will be depress coz he got me. I dont feel my worth to anyone except my family and God. Besides them, i guess no one will ever treat me special and it hurts just thinking about it.

Maintenance Training

Hey yow! Well this day was a fine day I guess. So last time I attended a training in my company's department. Thank God I was the highest in the exam out of all the Team leaders and Engineers who attended. But although let say Im good in theories but in terms in actual repair I salute all of them and Im hoping one day I can be a maintenance technician.

So this day I was assigned to report a topic. I was very nervous because I will be the only technician who will report and the youngest also. Its my first time to explain technical stuffs. So far so good.

All I wanted is for them to not get bored at all because my report is super boring, well at least I tried and they are attentive, but not all. I just hope they understood the report.

So the epic part is when I asked them if who is in the picture (Michael Jackson) and then I told them like " right! This is Michael Jordan" and everyone was laughing hard. Okay, my fault..