Harvest Time - 30th Church Anniversary

Today was our  30th Church Anniversary. Thats the reason I went home. Since the start of time, I always attend in our anniversary. Well I hope next year I could still attend. Ive seen new faces, new people, new born and those who returned, I am truly blessed.

I miss the youth. Most of them are joining the choir and the new converts are still there working for the glory of God. I am happy for all of them. The way my youth leaders leads, it was just really amazing. Although, in someways I am out of place to their topics, but I expect that it will really happen. Anyways,I am still happy that I saw them again, still glorifying God and all. I hope I could stay longer.


People said I became thinner, well not fat, im soooo far from that. They say Im used to my new life, without my family. Oh well, tomoorow I am going back to my workplace and seriously now I still dunno what car I'll ride.I dont know where I will go. May God bless me to my trip tomorrow.

I have new glasses!!! Its pink. I dunno why I chose this, but I didnt regret. well, for now..

I wonder if you need me still

HURT. The feeling Im trying to hide for months. Yes, I havent moved on. I didnt even try to. Why? Because Im still hoping although I know that there's no hope, that there's no chance.

I didnt know that if you love someone very much, if they left you, it will hurt also hurt much or even more. I am all by myself now, im independent. But because of all the problem im facing, of course I still need someone. Sometimes I just cant take the pain. My strength has limits that I just breakdown. I wanted to call him, coz at this time I badly need him, not as a friend, but more than that. Yes, I have loads of friends but you still need that special someone right?


I thought if i stop communicating with him I can move on, but hell no! Everyday I just miss him more. The more I miss him, the more it hurts. Sometimes Im walking home, Riding the bus, I would just cry coz I badly miss him. I want to be witrh him. I badly I want.


I saw his fb earlier and I never saw him that happy in his photos. Im happy because he already moved one. Im sad because he is  happy without me. I never thought I was so selfish. Maybe if he never knew me , he will not get hurt. I regret everything ive done. I feel terribly sad, hurt and all the bad feeling I could feel.

Too late to say sorry. Yeap, its too late to apologize. But its just me, I cant helped it. I tried to message him earlier. But I guess he will not reply again. and 5 days to go ...   :'(


I've been looking up to heaven while I'm crying over you. I cant forget the good times we've had when you were mine. I wonder if you need me still, after all this time.... 

FAMILY - 1st Quarter of my Life

The reason that Im blogging now is that because I AM AT HOME! I totally miss my home, my dresses , the wifi and most of all, the guys here!

I dont want to talk about the sad stuffs that happening to my family right now. I better not mention it, and just pray to God. (Cheer up Kris!!!)


Okay. Wipe tears*


My family went to the place I am staying, well not really all of them. I am so very happy to see the guys! They are so tall now. But the funny thing now is that they have there vacation while there's a typhoon. Poor guys, but in the last day of there vacation, the rain stopped so we roam, around the city.Buy new clothes and stuffs!! Of course, I bought my siblings something. I also gave dad a shirt and mom a bag which cost 1.7k, very expensive but she doesnt know.

Im kinda  lazy to type. so Im just gonna posts the photos and whoever see it. ENJOY!!

Well, im not scared... not that much.

peace peace peace.

4 siblings. 

me and palong! i miss him veyr much..  :D

 the boys. 

well, something like a photoshoot. 

i will still drink it later thats why.

gosh! fighting again!

minus 3. i hope we are complete.

yeap, rain bathing. haha

nevermind. 

yes, floods.. floods evrywhere.

spaghetti u want? 

cool. i like this shot.

i like my dress. :)

haha. dunno. 

welcome to the world of whoever

shakeys.

taran!!

WORK - 1st Quarter of my Life

Oh! Its been years since the last time I updated my blog and because of that I have a lot to posts. Even if no one read my blog, (which is much better) I want this to be my memory, someday if im going to get very old, or got amnesia or anything. 

Let's talk about "WORK". I didnt mention about my work before because the one thing is, its stressful. Totally stressful that I can die now. It sucks! Sorry I used that word, but yes, now im stressed and depressed. So yeah, to kill everyone's curiosity why Im acting weird now, I'll explain calmly as I could. 

I am always pressured by my boss. Sometimes, I have no time to eat breakfast and lunch because I have to do this and that. People says that no one stays in the position I am now, they all resigned because of the boss. They say I will not stay longer there. But for me, I know that work is work. I have to do my job right.  Im always pressured. Im always scolded. Im always judged. 

Honestly, Im suffering. Im a very weak person and  I cant handle too much stress. But I have no choice, I have to work, I need to save money. I have to, even if sometimes, I wanna QUIT.

Although, my boss is not-in-good-terms with me I am still happy because I have some friends there. Those people who just tell you to be strong. They are the reason why I still stay in my work.They are the reason I still laugh. 

This guy here is Kevin. He is a very funny person. 

He has same school as mine, thats why we became friends.

This is my precious computer. Just look at the wallpaper. 

I am so pink-ish. lol

Yeap, thats me and my PC. Oh! I like what Im wearing that day.

Cheers to Roshiel!

My group of friends. Yes, Im wroking with Roshilel. 

Coincidence? Nope, destiny. haha

Okay, this guy here is Jerson. he is my partner at work.

He always helps me with everything. but i dont like the way he treats the girls.

He has 2 gf. shemmit Jerson!

this guy here is the funniest of all. 

Love his hair! Straight and shiny. lol

Sir X with Chef. They are the best!

cockroach? haha. 

poor Chef.