Distance

Distance doesn't matter they say.


But the reality of it, not able to see the person you want the most is an unbearable sadness. It matters. It matters for those who long for someone.


To be with someone is one of the best feelings which was taken to you. Hoping for that little bit of chance that you might see that someone. It absolutely doesn't make sense at all.



The mere fact that there's no assurance of happily ever after, but Why on earth I have to choose someone who is miles away?  The happiness you have from someone without their presence is indeed a stupid choice. But at the end of the day, he's the one who listens and gives you comfort. It's worthed it, for now.

Me being Me

As a sister to my siblings
1. I shout whenever or whatever the reasons
2. Punching and slapping are signs of a good relationship
3. We bully each other a lot.
4. I am the craziest person they know.
5. I never act as the oldest sibling.



As a Friend
1.  I don't tell them when Im angry or pissed.
2. They bully me a lot.
3. Im the invinsible friend.
4. Im not updated with others lives
5. I care a lot when they're sick.



As a Gf
1. I cry when Im angry.
2. Overprotective.
3. I tell him all my secrets.
4. Depend too much.
5. Care too much about everything

That "not meant to be" Feeling

Hey there self!!


So I and TYJ started talking again. It's been a week that we are messaging constantly. Getting to know more about each other.

We had meaningful convo before, but I think today we're like very close and just talk about everything in life.

I'm really happy that I had a chance to talked to him again, I was half way ready in forgetting him. But my mind says no, so here we are confused of what is our status. Too sad eh.


Ugh, yes he knows I like him very much, and I think he likes me as well but of course as a close friend only.


Too bad because we're far away from each other and all we could say is , "how i wish", "i hope", something like that which makes me sad.


I'm okay, he's okay with this, but me thinking that I have to let go of my feelings somewhere in the future, just crashed my heart. haha.


I sincerely dunno what will happen, maybe going with the flow might be a terrible yet interesting idea we wanted to try :)

Hopeful much

Is there a chance?? :(

Note to self

You're gonna get hurt more.
But you took the risk.
Someday he'll leave you.
Will you be fine?


You are this one crazy girl.
I told you to move on.
You didn't, you never tried.
Don't expect too much.


He is just a friend, forever will be.