To the person I love the most

I dont know u if u will be able to read this, but i just really hope so.

I know at this time, u are still angry at me. You may think that I dont love you. That Im just playing with your feelings. But its all wrong. Iloveyouverymuch and it really hurts me to do this, not to talk to u anymore and also because we silently end this.

You know why I did this? It's for your happiness. You may think that Im stupid and lame saying this. But when I was far away from you, everyday and everynight i will just keep thinking about you and I was wondering how many times I've hurt you, i feel bad about it. You said that wounds will heal and it just take time, but I know that ur wounds will never heal as long as ur with me, because of all my stupidity. but i know that without me, i know maybe u are hurt right now, but soon enough the wounds will heal.

You know palangga ta ka katama and all I want is for you to be happy and I know its much better without me. Trust me, someday you will move on, continue with ur career and will be able to find that girl that you will marry. :'(

As for me, im trying to move on, well this is quite impossible but i will try coz this is the only way i can go on. Although it really sucks to go on with my life without you, but i will and I can. And i still believe that maybe someday we will still going to be friends, just maybe... And dont worry I will continue to pray for u and ur career. 

Thank you for everything, for all the time we spent together, for the understanding and the care, for all the sleepless nights, for all the songs that you made, for all the advices you've given me, for all the prayers, and most especially for loving me. I am really happy and  blessed to know someone like you. This is sad to say but Iloveyou, Goodbye.

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Boring Questions

Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, and find line 4.
> im lazy to move so im gonna skip this.


Stretch your left arm out as far as you can, What can you touch?
> banana peel coz im only eating banana for lunch.

Before you started this survey, what were you doing?
> eating banana.

What is the last thing you watched on TV?
> the last time i watched was sunday night and it was GGV.

Without looking, guess what time it is?
> 3:30?

Now look at the clock. What is the actual time?
> 3:55

With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?
> children playing outside.

When did you last step outside? What were you doing?
> yesterday night, i from school celebrating the alumni homecoming.

Did you dream last night?
> i cant remember.

Do you remember your dreams?
> yes! I got weird dreams this past few days.

When did you last laugh?
> earlier while watching something in youtube,

Do you remember why / at what?
> the girls is very funny in the show im watching. Haha

What is on the walls of the room you are in?
> the paint is green apple? Or apple green?

Seen anything weird lately?
> my face. Haha.

What do you think of this quiz?
> It’s alright. Nothing special. Pretty much like every other quiz I’ve done.

What is the last film you saw?
> hotel pensylvannia ( sorry for the spelling)

If you could live anywhere in the world, where would you live?
> wherever God wants me to live.

If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy?
> a lot fo stuffs, maybe i should keep the 10% also for my tithe.

Tell me something about you that most people don’t know.
> im always depressed secretly.

If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?
> one God, one faith, one baptism.

Do you like to dance?
> harlem shake ! Nope, i cant dance.

Would you ever consider living abroad?
> yes! If God's will I hope i can.

Does your name make any interesting anagrams?
> anagram is?

Who made the last incoming call on your phone?
> Roshiel, but I didnt answer coz i was downstairs.

What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
> nothing.

Last time you swam in a pool?
> ages ago! Last year i guess.

Type of music you like most?
> christian songs and kpop at times.

Type of music you dislike most?
> something irritating to the ears.

Are you listening to music right now?
> not intentionally, my bro is playing a song to tease me! :(

What color is your bedroom carpet?
> no carpet, its all made up of woods.

If you could change something about your home, without worry about expense or mess, what would you do?
> nothing much. Not the looks actually, but i prefer more about everyone's attitude.

What was the last thing you bought?
> food! Haha.

Have you ever ridden on a motorbike?
> yeap, my bro drive. I wanna learn too, maybe soon!

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
> No, I’m not good with heights.

Do you have a garden?
> nope, no space at home.

Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
> i guess so? Haha

What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning?
> " here it goes another day of boringness."

If you could eat lunch with one famous person, who would it be?
> Ryan Higa. Jackie Chan

Who sent the last text message you received?
> Ken, my classmate. Stuffs bout our attachment.

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
> i have no idea as of this moment.

What time is bed time?
> whenever im sleepy. Mostly 11 or 12.

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
> yes, im one of the audience :)

How many tattoos do you have?
>None.

If you don’t have any, have you ever thought of getting one?
> nope.

What did you do for your last birthday?
> dinner with my high school classmates at home.

Do you carry a donor card?
> nope.

Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
> my bros and Ian at school.

Is the glass half empty or half full?
> either way, depends on what u think,

What’s the farthest-away place you’ve been?
> Spore.

When’s the last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
> havent.

Have you ever won a trophy?
> just medal.

Are you a good cook?
> nope, but i hope soon i will be,

Do you know how to pump your own gas?
> Um, no.

If you could meet any one person (from history or currently alive), who would it be?
> after watching Running Man, i would say Jackie Chan :)

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
> Yep.

Do you touch-type?
> Huh?

What’s under your bed?
> mess my bros had made.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
> nope, its not love, its affection.

Think fast, what do you like right now?
> Food. Coz im hungry.

Where were you on Valentine’s day?
> at home, nothing much.

What time do you get up?
> mostly 8, but nowadays 7 am :(

What was the name of your first pet?
> just choose from my other siblings, hahah

Who is the second to last person to call you?
> Victor. Asking where i am.

Is there anything going on this weekend?
> yes, I will sleep! Haha

How are you feeling right now?
> I’m not sure honestly.

What do you think about the most?
> As of now, someone.

What time do you get up in the morning?
>This morning? 06:30am.

If you had A Big Win in the Lottery, how long would you wait to tell people?
> i dont want to join a lottery so it will be impossible.

Who would you tell first?
> i wont,

What is the last movie that you saw at the cinema?
> ive never been to cinema for a very very long time, 6 years ago!

Do you sing in the shower?
>Yep!

Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
>Sure I’ve already answered this…

What do you do most when you are bored?
> Ipad time!

What do you do for a living?
> as of now, waiting for my attachment,

Do you love your job?
> if ever i will have, i just hope i will.

What did you want to be when you grew up?
> to be a successful human,

If you could have any job, what would you want to do/be?
> i rather be an office girl with big big salary.

Which came first the chicken or the egg?
>The chicken.

How many keys on your key ring?
> what is that anw?

Where would you retire to?
> in a pretty nice home :)

What kind of car do you drive?
> I don’t drive.

What are your best physical features?
> none.

What are your best characteristics?
> being stupid. Haha

If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation where would you go?
> Other countries.

What kind of books do you like to read?
> bible or devotional books.

Where would you want to retire to?
>Stop repeating questions.

What is your favorite time of the day?
> afternoon. I sleep.

Where did you grow up?
> home sweet home.

How far away from your birthplace do you live now?
> its just in the other town,

What are you reading now?
>These questions.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?
>More of an night owl.

Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
>Nope. I look stupid doing that. Haha

Can you close your eyes and raise your eyebrows?
> Yep. (I just tried this.)

Do you have pets?
> my other siblings

How many rings before you answer the phone?
> if my phone is silent, i never. Haha. But if its in tune, hmm. Depends how far i am from my phone.

What is your best childhood memory?
> just play and play like theres no tomorrow, and you dont have worries.

What are some of the different jobs that you have had in your life?
> just in my attachment, autocad and camerawoman,

Any new and exciting things that you would like to share?
> my life is so boring

What is most important in life?
>God

What Inspires You?
> my family. I need to work hard for them.

Dad's Alumni Homecoming

Today was such a tiring day.
First, im really thankful for my memory bcoz last week my bro changed my password, and good thing he is not clever enough, i guessed the password! He is so lame bcoz the password he used was also his passwors before which im familiar with! So now i got my fb back.
Roshiel went here at because we decided to go to mall just to kill the time, but before that we went to school. Oh how i miss it! There we meet up with Victor, we thought he will treat us, but in the end he said he cant. We are really pissed.. Until now.
We went to Chinatown with my family just to hang out and buy a new case for my ipad, but its quite expensive so in the end they didnt buy one. Maybe if ever i will start to work, its the time that i will be ablr to buy my own stuffs. Then after that we ate pizza and went to the other mall. I told them that Rosh and I will go somewhere and dad is telling me that maybe i will meet up with my bf. "Where got,daddy?". Oh well, we.just roam around the mall. Talk and talk then eat at Jollibee. We are so full.
Then in the evening i went back to school because dad has an alumni homecoming. We ate a lot there. Like a lot. Ive seen my teacher there and we take a photo. Hope my bro will upload it asap. So after eating, there is a live band and then after it was a reggae band. The old people are having so much fun. And me... Well...  :)

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Dental Speaking

Okay, i got my teeth cleaned. Well, its called "cleaning" , i just dont know how to construct the sentence. Its my first time actually.


How does it feel?
Screw the pain!! It was very very irritating, the way the dentist scrub it, man! So painful, and when I spit all those stuff inside my mouth, a lot of blood! Well i wasnt shocked coz my cousin told me about her experince before and yeah, i am experiencing the same way too.

There's a bad news though :'(
The doctor said i had a Gingivitis, I Wasnt shocked becoz Roshiel told me about it before. My gums are turning black, everytime I brush theres a lot of blood. The dentist said that my gums are already swollen, and if it keeps to be like this, my teeth will just fall and fall till I have no teeth already. I WAS VERY SCARED! Just imagine me without teeth! So cute right? Seriously, I dont want. Man! What will happen to me, at this young age. Good thing he gave me some medication and gave me the medicne I need to take.


Dad bought the toothpaste and the medicine. The toothpaste is very expensive!!! Gosh, what kind of toothpaste was it , does it have gold in it? Lame. I have to take the medicne, every morning and evening. No one knows how I feel, after putting the medicne to my gums, its very painful and taste bitter!! Then after that, i cannot longer eat, wait for the next meal again.


This is my life now, need to take care of my precious teeth so that I can still eat Anything I want. Yes! Determination.

My Perfect Getaway

I am back after 7 years!! When I was there ( in the other town) and when I have nothing to do, I just type everything that happens on that day, but not all days bcoz sometimes im also lazy, but im so lame bcoz i forgot to put the date of the post!!


Okay here it goes:

Once upon a time....

I was scared to ride the bus, coz the last time I ride, I feel really sick. so now I asked my aunty that we will just take the one-stop bus which is a bit expensive also....hmmm, I cant believe it but yes, I didnt feel dizzy after 2 and a half hours of travel.

When we arrive in the house, It was all new, before it was just all made of woods but now its all cement and the neighbors' houses are so nice! Well our house aint that nice still because still renovating it. Im planning to give aunty if ever I will work aleady to buy some stuffs to improve the house.

Well, we brought are TV there coz they dont have one, so at night I asked my uncle who is also staying at the house that we will look for an extra antenna in the neighborhood, but too bad we havent found any.

The next day, I wake up at 7 am! So early right? i cant sleep much because of my skin allergy or whatever you call it. We ate cereal at around 8 am, then I sleep again then aunty wake me up to eat breakfast, I ate a lot. After that, we ate toblerone. Then i take a bath and wash my clothes.

In the afternoon we went in the other town, because its the only near place which u can buy foods and all. We went to buy an antenna, then some curls. Because aunty got a small store. Then we come home and I help uncle to fix the antenna. But too bad the signal is just very weak because its far far from the main site.

uncle fixing the antenna.

i want to get the papaya!lol

inside aunt's store

the house, aint fixed yet so thats why.

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I wake up at 8 am, but before that I woke up at 4 am. Then try to sleep again, maybe its not skin allergy but mosquito's bites, coz theres a lot. Nothing much happen, the whole day we are just watching tv, playing ipad and yes, speaking, i got the TOP SCORE in Tap Tap Revenge Tour for most of the songs just for the first try! Beat that! Im so humble right. Oh well, i think if im goin to stay longer here, im going to be fat, i just eat and eat. I ate curls, bread, salad, and toblerone! Man, im so full always, Im the one who is staying away from the food already!

My uncle keeps talking about my childhood crush, at the age of 3, i have a crush already!! Whats with that! And guess how old is he, he was 20 plus that time. Can u believe it? Coz if u ask me, i regret it! They keep talking about it, mentioning the name of that guy. Oh well, he is now married and i dnt care about him, seriously. He has an younger bro which is also one of the youth, and we're kinda close coz I always bully him, i call him 'ugly' . Okay, enough for this.

TOBELRONE, mylove <3

 when boredom strikes.

yeap. just eat and eat there. :)

and yes, after eating, i sleep! 

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Today most the time all I did was to sleep, and eat! Gosh! I just wanna stay here seriously! They have a lot of food. I wanna stay longer, but maybe my parents don't want, so I will go home tomorrow. Earlier we take photos also around the house.

Before I go home, aunt give me a lot of foods and stuffs. She gave me curls, biscuits, toys for my bro and ponytails! She is so sweet. Tomorrow for sure she will give me fruits to bring for mom.

My worries is I have a lot of stuffs to bring tomorrow, my bag is so heavy with my clothes and all the stuffs. Oh well, i just hope I can take a one-stop bus, sure no worries will happen. Cant wait to go home and bully my younger siblings!

The flowers were just really nice. 

Aunt and uncle :)

doggie <3

having our private conversation. haha :D