"Imagine me without you
I'd be lost and so confused
I wouldn't last a day, I'd be afraid
Without you there to see me through"
Seriously, starting the time I know Lim, everyday is just really a happy day. There is no day we dont message each other. We sleep at around 3 am every night and I have class the next morning! But it doesnt really matter because Im just happy talking to him. It was easy for me to fall inlove with him because he is just so honest, loving and caring.
After 2 or 3 months, we became a couple. It was one of the happiest day of my life. But of course there are times that we fight because of some reasons. Like this and like that. Honestly, it was always my fault. I always makes him angry unintentionally. But good thing we can still fix things.
But there came to a point that i wanted to break up, u know that feeling that ur just super angry and whatever is in ur mind u will just say it. So i did, i told him we will just break up without considering his feelings. But then when i wake up in the morning he sms me, and that time i realized my stupidity. I told him i cant live without him. But of course it would hard for him to believe. That day was just one of the worse day. But he gave me another chance.
But just last week, i broke my promise :'( i broke up with him again. But after that, everyday i would just trying to live. Seriously, i just want to die. I cant believe i did it to the person who loves me most. I thought he wouldnt give me another chance, but I know he doesnt trust me much now. I wouldnt blame him for that. Although it really hurts, its just matter of time.
Without Lim in my life, i just cant live happily. But now I know He still need time, a lot of time. I just really hope that someday somehow he could love me again the way he loved me before. I know its quite not possible at this time. I will really wait for that time. I will patiently wait, because I need him in my life. I dont know what to do with my Life without Lim, he is my life, he is my everything and if he will be gone to my life . . . I just cant :'(
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