Might be the end of "the story of us"

That awkward moment when tears are just flowing and flowing. You cant stop it, you cant hide it. I just notice that I look uglier when I cry! (Yeah thats for real!).

That girl. Yeah that's me, make a stupid decision again. I promise a lot, but always broke my promises, but it doesnt mean that I dont love him. I dont know also why Im like this, maybe im just really super childish, or worse, NEUROTIC TENDENCIES ( i dont know what it means). I feel bad for him, cause he always the one getting hurt, i always hurt him like everytime already. Im the worst girlfriend ever! Thats a fact. I guess guys should better back off from me. I would just hurt others feelings, I am so selfish. I dont care much about him, I only care about myself. I should be mature enough to realize that sometimes being selfish hurts people a lot, like A LOT already.

But maybe its too late already to fix this relationship that I destroyed. Of course the silly me still hoping for another chance , but I would understand if he doesnt want me back. Cause for sure i will still hurt him unintentionally in many many ways because i am as stupid as a dead carrot ( what?) .

Oh! Tears. Stop flowing. My eyes are super red already.

Earlier I went with bestest to the mall. Then when I saw a chubby guy, i will remember him! If ever I saw a chinese guy, i will remember him. If ever I will saw a guitar, I will remember him! If ever I saw a couple, I will remember him! Well everytime I go anywhere see this kind of people and stuffs i will always remember him, but this time, its not happiness , i just feel hurt deep deep inside. But good thing i tried to hold those tears!!


I make a poem for him, but i know he will not able to read this. Its a happy happy poem but i was crying while making this. Lame I know, and as usual I dont know whats the title of this.



I like how u play your guitar
Makes me feel ur here even if ur far
I like how u sing for me
It always makes me happy


I like how u sound when ur sleepy
It is so cute and funny
I like how u call me baby
It always makes my day


I like the way you kiss me
It makes me fall for u deeply
I like it when u act childish
Pinching ur cheek, thats my wish!

I like how we call each other baboy
You just dunno it gives me joy
I like everything about you
Seriously, from head to toe


Ive never loved someone before
Like what my love for u has in store
This one thing im gonna tell u truely
YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY ONE AND ONLY <3