Hello to myself! How are u? Feeling better? nah? Appear!
okay, im stupidly talking to myself again. So my crush asked me to go out with him tomorrow, he invited me to this gathering, but im not sure if im going. He said we will meet up and talk about stuffs, I dont even know what we will talked about. Haiz. I dont feel like going, tomorrow ive got plans, much important plans like do laundry, watch horror movies by myself and buy grocery alone.
See? Im being independent now. Doing all stuffs by myself, going to church alone, going to mall alone, eating in Jollibee alone. Alone. Always alone. Oh yes! Im fine.. Im happy to be alone. Im very happy :')
Honestly......
Going to church alone. But the good thing is that its very near to my house. I have friends at church, but their ages are like 15 to 17 yrs old. After church, i talked to them for awhile then go home. I cant go with my bestfriend anymore because she's with her bf.
Going to mall alone. ive never been to mall by myself when I was still in my hometown.Now, Everytime I go to the mall which is near my house, I always see this guitar shop, and it breaks my heart. I didnt know even stuffs like this would affect me badly until now. Gosh! When will I ever get over him. tsk!
Eating alone. well, im kinda used to it in our hometown, i always eat late thats why. but at Jollibee, or any other food chains, man! im never used to it, no matter how delicious the food, im not happy at all. Im alone.
Now I know how he feels, being alone. But its too late for me because I just experienced it now. Its hard, I dont want this life. I need someone.. I need God, I need my family, I need him......
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