when i was young, I cant wait to get old.
now im old, living my own life... all i want now is to be young. i dont want to live this way seriously, i am away from my family. im living by myself, spending my own needs with my own money. i cant ask for my parent's help anymore. if i dont have money, well i need to make way to find one.
my daily routine:
wake up earlier than the sun, i never saw the sunrise.
go to work, get stressed with work and the people around.
go home hungry, overthinking about life, cry hard, regrets, pray and cry.
my life sucks seriously. i remember a friend of mine said to me, i have small salary, im away from my family , i have no boyfriend, my life is terrible. so terrible.
but i guess its not. i still have God. everyday i know he walks with me, He gave me His grace. I know im not a perfect christian, but He still loves me.... true love.
it hurts how u want to talk to that someone, but they dont want anymore, they just dont want YOU anymore. it badly hurts, the pain is killing me....
No comments:
Post a Comment