Getting back or breakng up

12/25/12 - this day i thought it would be one of the happiest day, but it turns out to be the opposite. This day, i might have loose him. Maybe this freedom thing would turns out to be a new beginning. Two choices, getting back or breakng up. But whatever happens, its for the best. He knows that I love him so much. But there are times that misunderstanding comes, like you always fight and in the end just get tired and I wanna get out of the boundary.

This past few days, I've got a feeling that somethng its not right anymore. I can feel the emptiness, the unhealthy relationship. But I just keep on praying that its just my mind. But no, it was real. i asked him myself, and what I was thinking is whats on his mind also. Maybe we became like this because, we didnt really focus more on God. But maybe this might be the time, that we should find ourselves in the sense that we should seek God more.

I feel guilty, coz sometimes I rather spent time with him than church. im just coping up with the time that we missed, but I didnt realized that God is more important. Maybe this is the reason of having this not so good relationship. Its a good thing that we decided to be free.

Whatever happens, i will accept wholeheartedly. if we are destined to be together, let it be. if not, there is someone much better for both of us. He will be always mylove.



Photo: No one knows, i cried the night before.